Doodle is heading up to Vermont tomorrow morning. She talked her father into letting her take the car and come solo. This will be her first time driving up on the interstate by herself. I got a bit worried when she called earlier and asked about an on-ramp in Monroe.
” Mum, you know when you leave the rest area and you are trying to get back on the highway, and you go right, then under the bridge, then there are two ramps on the left…. which one do I get on?”
She is talking about the interstate on and off ramps. Take the one on the left and you go onto the interstate heading the wrong way, literally, heading south in the north bound lane. Here goes my overactive, hyper-alarm. mom drive. I imagine Doodle going the wrong way on the interstate and freaking out.
” Doodle, take the ramp on the right, look at the arrows, the signs, you will be fine.”
Cross your fingers and hold your breath.
But this is what happens.
It was just a couple of years ago that she was getting signed up for swimming lessons, and loosing a tooth or two, and going to Willey’s store by herself. Now she is driving. By herself. On the interstate. oh my.
Funny thing though, I am not feeling old. I am actually at a point where I am feeling like life is just beginning again for me, much like Doodle heading out of child hood into her great unknown.
These past couple of weeks I have been struggling with a graduate course and had three major case studies to write. I had a real mental block this week on one of them and for the first time really questioned my ability and desire to do graduate school at all. Completely frustrated,but not over the material, I got really triggered by the professor of all things. That hasn’t happened to me in decades. I simply couldn’t stand his teaching style and felt like I didn’t want to give anything of myself, in the least. This was all a manifestation of a bunch of other stuff happening, but the end result is that I had true writers block.
Like getting nervouse about heading the wrong way up the interstate.
So cross your fingers and hold your breath. Face your fears and today I finished all of the case studies and have completed this class.
So excited to see Doodle tomorrow without this hanging over me.
Update: 
She made it in on piece!
