Having trouble getting stuff out today. I am sensitive now that I might piss off someone with what I write because of the reaction I got with Shoot, Shovel and Shut-up. So now I feel somewhat tethered. Unable to freely write and too conscious of the topics.
I have said before that there are topics that I would like to write about, but that I have to wait. Writing that you know will upset folks needs to be really carefully considered before publishing. In any form.
I was thinking of starting another blog with a fake name so that I could write about more stuff. Keep the farming stuff on this site and other topics off. But there is something about needing to hide what I feel and think that really irritates me.
I came from a family where talking about emotions and how one felt was taboo, especially if what you felt was not consistent from the expectations or regular rules of behavior. Being the odd one out was often difficult. I have always been the black sheep, hence part of the reason why I raise the odd merino. Black. There are merino breeders who do not accept colored merinos as pure merino. Even a better reason to raise them.
I am contrary by nature. I stir the pot and call out stuff as I see it. I challenge the status quo. I am trying to learn to do this in a more gentle way and not with confrontation. Confrontation turns folks off and the result is that the message is lost.
So I guess as I write I need to learn how to write openly, more gently. But Gary Larson isn’t subtle, nor was George Carlin. Neither would be funny without the dark stuff, but the message is delivered with humor, which disarms folks and allows room for gentle confrontation.
My tethering is the pain point of the beginning of growth. I welcome it and will take the challenge of writing in discomfort.
